Not My Reality

I lay awake in the dark. I can't sleep because if I do, I fear my dream will eat me alive. That's how I often feel. That this dream, this obscure thought will leave me heartbroken. It'll take so much of me that I will remain empty. I will have nothing left.

That is why I dream with my eyes open. Because when i'm awake.. when I'm awake reality keeps me in check. Reality never disappoints.

But reality is also very boring. While it's realistic it can also be unrealistic at the same time.

It's reality, but it's not my reality.