Embracing Change

Growth is essential in life.

We need it to better ourselves and to build character.

However.. Growth is not always comfortable. This morning i woke up with a panic attack.

I woke up with a panic attack because change was knocking at my door and i didn't want to answer.

Change was prying at the door to open but i held it shut.
With every knock I heard, I felt anxious like the butterflies in my stomach. Anxiety has taken over my brain once before but this time it was different.

I haven't been anxious in a while before this episode so anxiety decided to revisit me.

My brain got confused and declared that i was sick, which explains the stomach ache.

Ever since i was 13 i had to battle with anxiety. Now, it's gonna be different.

I'm tired of it. I'm tired of fear because it’s boring and doesn't get you anywhere.

Fear only makes you dwell on things and does not allow you to take action.

I’ve been there. Done that.

This time it's going to be different. Yes it hurts.

The fire is burning and it hurts like hell. Sometimes i gotta go through the fire to realize how strong i am. I’ve been through this before and every time i came out strong.

I came out standing victorious. Yes, so many people are scared but only a few are fearless. Which one will i be? Which one will i choose? As I stood up from my bed, I wiped away my tears and I let fear fall to the ground.

I opened the door and embraced change.